Sitting on the stone steps
I realised I was only observing now
It was the twilight of my soul
Torn, separated, cast aside, ripped from inside out
My journey is now stagnant,
I only observed the passing cars, since I did not have the courage to carry on
Everywhere there were signs of togetherness
Holding hands, looking into each other’s eyes, embraces of longing
All I could do was look away, squeeze my eyes tight
Hope the lovers would disappear when I opened them again
Hopeless in a city full of hope
The only flower that hasn’t bloomed in spring time
Love was blossoming with a blaze of hormones and promises of forever
Meanwhile I curled up on the floor, unable to let go
Loneliness spread like a disease all over, until it burnt me from within
I wished I could just pass out from the pain, but no such luck
I was alive, my heart was beating and my soul….
My soul was dancing with a fury, seducing my mind to give up
Give up now, its over, there is nothing left.
It showed me images of sweet release, the life flowing out
My soul was trying to murder me in my weakest moment
One of these days, my dear mind, please just listen.
I just want to carry on, not be an observer anymore