Self Destruct

The music flowed…
Smoke swirled across the room,
Look at nothing in particular
Again the rise, the flood again
Complete and utter feeling of misery

This evening it returns
To consume me slowly
Till I curl up into a ball
And I cannot bear it anymore
It sucks till dry

Lying on the marble floor
Tear stained cheeks, salty…
Cannot breathe, stifling, hands clenched tightly
Then the scream… agony, helplessness, anguish, crushing pain
It stabs with brutal force
Ripples of screaming
Finally
Silence