Deserted

Desolate winds now caress her cheek
As she swims across the sea of sand
The emptiness of her surroundings masking her being
Is there no relief, no rescue

Looking up at the blazing sun
Her tears run dry
Her feet blistered
Her spirit broken and shattered

There he stood,
Strong, Silent and Proud
His face a mask of disgust
That accused her, that she had expectations
That she needed comfort
That she couldn’t understand
That she wasn’t patient and let him be

She looked upon him,
Resigned and exhausted of fighting
Hopeless
Tired of pretending to understand
Tired of being patient
Tired of waiting for signs, for love, for comfort

Turning away, she ran
Away from him
Away from his stare
Away from his dominating grip
Away from his ability to hurt her.
Away from the brutal man who destroyed her

Steps

The pain of not knowing
The anxiety of waiting
For the phone to ring

Red rimmed eyes
Head aching with all the tears
Heart feeling like its tearing in half

To be this miserable
To be in this much pain
To feel this hurt

Is the edge of the sea
You face the rocks now
With their salt spraying on your face

All you can think of is
One step, one little step
To fall free into the embrace of the waves

The one little gesture he could have done
To make you stop hurting
To stop you from making that step

Love has no meaning here
It is power that rules these two souls
His power to destroy hers
Her power to stop existing.

Disconnect

After the sun sets and I head back into my home
I allow myself to thoughts about you
Its not the need of you that consumes me
It’s the want of you

I know we have our lives
And perhaps no one can understand
Our strange relationship, like we do
I just wish we were ordinary once

The distance and the time
Drives us apart everyday
With each passing moment
We travel into our own world
Leaving each other behind

Today I allow myself a few tears
Not for the fact that you hurt me
But to challenge, if you would appear
To kiss them off my cheeks

Tonight after the sun has set
And I head back home
I allow myself to thoughts about you
Thoughts of letting you go…

Smile

The wisps of hair floating around her small face
The little girl held onto the fence
Overlooking the field of pasture
In the light of dusk
It looked like a sea of gold

Her eyes roamed the vastness
Closing her eyes
She pictured his face,
Grinning her favorite crooked smile
Her lips curved in delight

Climbing over the fence
She ran into the golden sea
The balmy air embracing her
Hair flying behind her
Running into the image of her sweet boy

She woke up, into reality
Curled around his frame
His arms held her gently
As he kissed her forehead
Looking up her lips curved with contentment
She gazed at her sweet boy
The boy with the crooked smile…